Thank You For Your Website

Hello brother Gee, how are you? Hope this finds you well. My name is Diane Chen. I am so bless to learn of your website and I am just in awe of knowing your precious walk with the Lord as I read some of your prayers to Him. So sweet! You truly love the Lord! I love that so much, seeing the genuineness it strengthens and encourages me a true godly man as I also don’t have that, don’t know how to talk to God like that, and don’t know how to pray like that due to my lack of time with Him, which I understand lies so many issues. I also have a hard time with thinking and writing it would take me over an hour to write to you for example, praying the Lord to help me with that. I am slowing down, too as I have had a couple of head injuries.

I am going through a lot right now have been for years, with my work issues I have been out on a leave of absence, but I have not rested at all due to Drs’ visits, HR, Workers Comp and legal matters, numerous job applications/ resume, job interviews, meetings with Therapists, meetings with Job Developers, going to job fairs, yet still have not been able to find another job to get out of my current job as there were bad issues happened to me. I have had a few lower back procedures to help relieve pain/left hand carpal tunnel surgery. Thank goodness I have a wonderful husband to take care of us all; however, he also has a stressful job and works full-time we don’t have a great marriage relationship at all due to so much hardships with me with my jobs and mistreatments, I have been traumatized a number of times. We have not been steady with going to Bible studies with our small group, we are busy folks we get tired easily. I am a mother of three teens girls, I don’t know how to be a mom, haven’t been really and are not close with my girls, I haven’t learned how. I have always been a worker to help financially. Now that I have been out, been on an unpaid leave so it has been hitting us financially. We both have large extended family members many don’t know the Lord, sadly especially my side is very sad, depressing, and toxic. Oh I long for the blessings from the Lord that they all will receive Him. We all have been in America for almost 50 years- next year, since the fall of Saigon, my husband is Chinese Cambodian was able to escape the Kmer Rouge regime. We are now living in Southern California in Orange County, Anaheim.

I am going somewhere with this I think.. Please teach me how to witness walk with the Lord again the Holy Spirit to do a work in me and transform me, pray for me if it is I need to be house arrest (so to speak) with no more worries no distractions learn to be disciplined yes it’s something I don’t know how even though I have been out for some time now, w/out all of the distractions to take care of issues, medical, and be settled with my legal Workers Comp situation coming up on June 5th deposition, for God’s favor for deliverance. If I am to continue working, I don’t really want to work any more; however I have (3) interviews next week and need to prepare for it I need to do very well so I can get at least one of then my husband is feeling pressured with all of the bills; however I think we’ll be ok once I retired when my small amount of pension kicks in, I hope. I want to see God’s will for us in this season, just feeling of His coming back soon for us. For the both of us to be spiritually strengthened, our marriage, my husband spiritual leadership to be strengthened. I am tired of the mundane life going through the motion, not being used by the Lord at all to be a witness for the Lord because of our ignorance of the joy in seeing people to receive Him because of our life’s cares, work stresses, and physical weaknesses. I have not been faithful to the Lord. I want to have my walk with the Lord to be like yours, for my husband, and for my girls. They have never known that. I have heard and learned in the past from other believers know that it can be for us all to have that closeness with the Lord like that, but I have forgotten until I stumbled into your website. Praying God to abundantly bless you, brother Gee. Thank you so much for all you do in sharing much of you to us all that needs it. Thank you.