Oh Lord, why is it that the church I know today is so different now? How most people who attend church only live for You while in those walls, but outside of them they are totally different people. This makes no sense and does not resemble the church I see while reading the books of the New Testament. Surely, the New Testament church people earnestly loved You and followed You also. It showed how they lived their lives and sought You often in prayer, fellowship, reading Your Words, and doing as You says. After giving my life to You over six years ago now, my life has not been the same, I also desire to live like the early disciples, but it is hard to find others in the faith who have the same heart like mine. So many people called me a Jesus freak, which is very sad to see. All I wish to do is shine the light that You have given me, and instead, these people don’t see any good but mock me instead. Wow! This generation has become so closed-minded to even speak of their faith in You to others. So many people are now saying to leave them alone for their religion to private to them. And others only go to church on the weekends but have no time for You during the week. Other things in their lives take their precious time away from You, which is so sad. Truly, my heart is burning to serve You every minute and every hour of each day. It is just hard to find another person in the city limits who desires to go out with me and witness the truths of the gospel to the lost. So I pray that You will lead me to people who are ready to follow You. I love You, God. Amen.